Hey! Leaving for Florida tomorrow, very excited apart from one small thing... Pete came down to walk me home from work when this girl, Crystal who works with me, says, " Is that your boyfriend?" i was like uh, huh and she proceeded to tell me how she was amigas with his ex-girlfriend and that she had been asking about me. Crystal said that she's been trying to find out who is new girl is and she is a psycho and i should watch my back. I laughed it off though and went home, Crystal is...

I'm very very confused right now and I have no idea why. I think perhaps this thing with my mother threw me right off track or something but that obviously isn't the sole reason I feel so down right now. It's really late at night or early in the morning right now, I can't even focus on the clock to tell you which. I couldn't sleep after my new work so decided just to come and write on here. My other work starts in a few hours. Dang. I think I've just got the blues because it's at that time of...

Ok, i just heard something really strange and I don't know exactly how I feel about it at this moment. I haven't yet mentioned anything to Ryan, I don't know what to say. My friend Steve called in at my work today and told me that his friend's sister or something had moved into my mother's old house. Confused because my mother's old house was in a completely different state, I asked how he knew it was my mother's. He said because I'd pointed it out to him only last week. Even more confused, h...

So I went to new work last night and guess what? Of all the coinkydinks in the world, this could only happen to me. That woman who stopped our fun in the park was a guest at the posh party and gave me funny looks the whole night. I thought she was gonna complain to my boss about me it was that bad. I could feel her eyes on me the entire time. It was horrible, not a nice feeling at all. It made me feel lousy but it was ok, because when I got home Pete was there and we went for a walk....

Went to the park near our dinky apartment today with Frank, Ry and Pete for a lovely picnic, except I guess you couldn't really call it a picnic as all we had were a bunch of Reece's pieces, some jack n' coke and some various candy bars but we meant it to be all sweet and kiddy like anyway, that's what picnics are. Ryan brought the guitar, just because I'd dragged him out for the picnic whilst he was slumming around the house playing-it was a nice day! You can't sit inside!- An...

I feel so bubbly and tingly, like a bathful of disolving painkillers or something. Ah, love.... Ryan's fine. Picked him up from hospital with his friend Pete (the guy I love..tell you in a min). The doctors say everything's cool just that he has to rest and stay away from rhubarb! Anyways, we decided to just sit around the apartment, nice quiet night in, the three of us, Frank was in bed,sleeping off his uber hangover... Anyway, Ryan got tired and went to bed around midnight leaving Pete and ...

Seems like somebody really doesn't want me to publish this blog. Twice I've tried to write it and half way through my computer had crashed sweeping it all away. Am I cursed? Does somebody really want my day to suck more than it already has? No, I won't let myself get mad. I'm zen, the zen master, if you will. Completely centered... So my sucky day started at 3am when I came home from new work to find the kitchen absolutely overflowing with...rhubarb. Yes, rhubarb, everywhere. In...

I sat around today and watched the movie " The Virgin Suicides", because I'm going to my new work later. I love that movie, I love how it was filmed, like the colours, the sun glare. Reminds me for some reason of this holiday me and Ry took to Florida on a crazy whim. It was so sunny and despite the two of us being young and independant and alone, I felt like such a little uninhibited kid. Maybe that's where I'm going on that surprise vacation Ry's got planned for us, he still hasn't said any...

Whoops. I borrowed Frank's car and got a speeding ticket. So typical of me. He's mad. Don't know why because it's not like he's gonna pay the fine, it's me who has to do it but he says it tarnishes his reputation. Whatever. I apologised, in fact i feel really bad about it. I hate Frank being mad at me hence I baked him a huge cake to say sorry. Frank loves my cake. Says it's even better than his mama's and Frank's mama is such a little sweetheart. I love her soooo much. I love going over to h...

Hi, I'm in good spirits today, perhaps that JD and coke or the ones following the first make me feel like this. I don't know. Perhaps I am just secretly a happy person who has burst out today, mmm...makes you think. Ryan's gig was so good the other day. A major brawl broke out right in the middle of his set and he stopped playing, seriously mad and yelled at all these guys to chill. He just broke into a rant about how everybody should just love each other and stop fighti...

I am a waitress and you know what the best thing you can do as a waitress is when somebody is being a smartass to you? After handing them their food, wipe your nose on your arm, then walk away, a bandy legged walk as you pull your panties out of your ass crack. Shocks people everytime. And they don't complain because I've been nothing but polite to them whilst serving them. Insults, yelling, slamming down food, drinks, condiments on the table, that stuff doesn't work. Only subtle, disgusting,...