oh god,please don't make me wear that dress..
It's been such a freaken week! so damned busy, i feel like I've hardly had a break!
At the moment i'm at Pete's house. i moved in last night because Kim's due in any time now. damn her. I don't really wanna talk to her, I reckon she'll maul me for god knows what so i just left early to avoid all the friction, it works better. Besides I get to spend time with Pete!
I got my ring last wednesday!!! It's the cutest thing, i knew my guy'd come good. It's like and antiqued silver wishbone ring (not traditional, I know) with a garnet in the middle, (sorry this is hard to explain!) but the other stones in the wishbone are in the pattern of diamond garnet diamond, do you follow that? I'm not sure I would if I was reading it! Anyways, I love the ring, It's just so cool.
Last night was our first night in the house together and what did we do? We both just went to bed! To sleep, you filthy minded people! We've been so busy lately that we were both to tired to do anything, I think we hit the sack about 9pm!! Pete snores. Cute little snores, i can't really explain the sound he makes but it's sooo sweet, kinda like the sound you'd guess a bunny to make if they made any noise. I woke up before he did and made him breakfast. I only made waffles but he complained and made them himself. I forget he's a chef! Nothing is good enough for him when it comes to food honestly. He only really eats what he makes and if we go out anywhere he criticises everything! He kissed me though for the thought, said I was a sweetheart.
I like to put maple syrup in all the little holes in my waffles. Not too much, just half way up. Unless we use the Mickey Mouse waffle iron that Petey has. It's like Mickey's head. He got it in disney and it's sooo cool. The ears are so tasty and fluffy, definately the best part. Why am I talking about waffles? Maybe I'm hungry.
Told Pete's family about the wedding on Thursday night. Yeah that wasn't intimidating for me at all. His family is huge. he has two older brothers, three sisters and numerous cousins who he treats like sisters and brothers so I just wasn't confused at all! Funnily we went to his Pop's restaurant for a meal, Pete was working, so he cooked for me, his momma, his poppa, his two aunts and uncles, his brothers and sisters and the seven cousins. It was madness. And it's not like they closed the restaurant for this either, they kept it open so there were even more people in there. The restaurant ain't even that big! It was a nice atmosphere though. i've met Pete's momma before,she always liked me so she was happy about the wedding. everyone seemed so excited. I expected some sort of lynch mob, probably because this has happened so fast,but we have known each other a long time, so....I dunno. .his eldest brother, Mickey, he seemed a bit weird, like he had doubts, but he was too nice to just come out and say anything, like he wanted to just be as happy as everybody for us. They're such a great family. I'm so glad to be marrying into that. I never had anything, or experienced anything like that before. A nice big warm family. Except for the argument his sister Donna had with his other sister Carla-Maria, that was so intense, cut the mood in two. I have no idea what it was about, something to with this guy they saw on the subway and they argued over the newspaper he was reading which lead on to something else and I lost track. Then of course, everybody sorta jumped into the argument, futile attempts to break it up making it crazier and crazier. all I could do was sit there and think, "What about your customers?" They were trying to have a nice meal in this restaurant and here were these two crazy girls screamin at each other over everything and everything. suddenly though, it just stopped. I'd disappeared off inot my own head, I can't take people yelling at people and cussin and hating. It just..just makes me feel so awkward so I went someplace else mentally and when I returned everybody had sat back down and was laughin and joking like nothing happened. i loved that. That is true family love right there. The complete picture image of a family. Shit on them and they'll just wipe it off. I loved it. My only problem, yup, of course, there had to be a problem with this didn't there, is that they expect us to have this big traditional family wedding and I just know that ain't gonna happen but they're so sweet and I really don't wanna let them down. I can't have a wedding like that though, it wouldn't be me and I think i overheard his aunt say something about the family wedding dress or something, belonged to their nonna's nonna or something crazy like that. Oh god, it'd be hideous! I can't do that! Please say I made that part up in my head. Pete and I haven't really discussed what the wedding will be like, we haven't set a date or even properly planned. we just know it's gonna happen. I dread talking with him about it now, just incase he mentions his family's plans. I don't think he'd wanna stick to them though, he won't want to be traditional will he?
I've worked pretty much day and night since I last posted, excluding Thursday, hence my tiredness. My initial excitement at new work has since long vanished. I hate everybody there now. I don't know what half of them are so happy for sometimes. They can just really get on your tits. how can they enjoy serving rich folk food? It just occured to me that waitressing is just the modern form of slavery. Spiced up with offers of cash and you'll be a slave to somebody. Hmm...don't you love our new PC world? We don't really have any dignity. we are lower than those egyptian slaves who were forced to work for nothing, we are worse because we choose and all for measly sums of money. sorry that was just a passing rambling i had. i like waitresses... but not the ones I work with. There was a time when i liked my job. i liked when I waitressed in a Sundae ice cream parlour when I was 16. I liked making sundaes for people, giving the hot guys extra hot fudge, giving the mean girls less. It was fun. Why the hell did I leave that?
This girl at new work is really bugging me. Her name is Ashlee. She's all sunshine and light and seriously aspires to be me for some unknown reason. Why the hell would you wanna do that? She goes on about how cool my hair is, about how she might get the same cut, maybe the same colour, if I wouldn't mind. She follows me around and laughs when I talk, even if I don't make a joke. when exactly should someone draw the line between being flattered and seriously creeped out by that? I don't know who she is because she copies me exactly. I already have a twin, I don't need another.
Ryan's been quite quiet lately. He sleeps a lot. An awful lot and I'm sure that isn't healthy. Also, I'm sure on saturday morning I heard him throw up in the bathroom but he wasn't hungover or anything. I asked him if he was ok, but he just said he was fine. He says he's tired and denies vomiting so maybe I did hear things? I kinda miss him. Sounds weird, he hasn't gone anywhere, said anything different, but he just seems pretty, well, maybe vacant's the word. Like I can see in his eyes when he talks to you, I think maybe he's slightly depressed but won't say anything. He's psyched about the wedding though. When we talk about it his eyes light for a second. He's excited because he gets to be best man. He talks about all these crazy styled weddings we could have, like themed or something. I dunno. He makes me smile though because when he talks about that I see him happy and then suddenly he's quiet and vacant. He says he's just tired, maybe he is.